Gem - you're not horrible, you're just in pain. Pain is exhausting and let's face it, pregnancy is tiring enough. Whilst some pain is normal, things like SPD/pelvic instability can just make things unbearable. There's the physical pain and also the emotional pain of not being able to do what you want, other people's judgements etc. If you haven't already, check out this thread:
https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...-137611-3.html

Your body is preparing for baby by stretching ligaments and hormones rushing through your system. Sadly, nobody tells you about SPD. There's some good tips in there. The most important thing is DO NOT push through the pain. It just makes it much worse. Use ice packs multiple times a day. Use pillows between your legs when sleeping. Don't roll OVER in bed, roll UNDER. It takes practice to learn.

If you need to, take panadol or even panadeine. If you can afford it, acupuncture and osteopathy/physio can help. Some physio can make it worse though - you need someone who specialises in pregnancy. The most important thing is try to come to terms with it as quickly as you can (I don't mean just suck it up, but the faster you learn to manage it the easier it will be to manage). Whinge, cry, write it out. Walk very slowly, get crutches if you have to, avoid stairs. When driving, turn corners at less than 10km an hour. Get SRC pregnancy shorts if you can afford them.

You will need a LOT of support. If your DP doesn't, get him to read the SPD thread. Google pelvic instability. You will need his unconditional support whilst you deal with it (just like you will once bub arrives).

btw - you can have a homebirth with SPD, you just need to use certain positions to reduce further damage.

GL and lots of hugs. Many of us have been through it.